Radha - Soulmate of Lord Krishna invoked in me. Spiritual Ecstasy because of long hair

I met Radha in me.

I just finished oiling my long hair. I combed them several times and finally wore them in a nice braid My braid is touching my waist. It looking shining, tight as not a single strand of hair is displaced. I love grooming my hair as they are divine gift.I have been growing them for last 5 and half years.

Well! I am not a girl narrating my hair care regime. But Priyamvad Thenappan a 25 year old man. In my introduction/ real story dated 06 October 2015 in the same blog, I expressed my background and my desire to grow long hair. Today I am going to narrate an amazing divine experience I am currently going through.

I took a vow to grow hair for 6 years and then donate hair at Tirupati temple. Still there are 6 months to complete 6 years. At work, I wear my hair in a topknot like a Sikh man and wrap a cloth around it or wear a turban. Normally at home my hair are in bun or a braid. I have long beard too.

I am a religious man. Since last few days, I have a feeling that I am Radha, consort of Lord Krishna. I feel that I am no longer a man but a female devotee of Lord Krishna. I felt like wearing woman dresses, Wearing ornaments, adorning my hair with flowers, wear a garland, sport a bindi and I visualized myself as beautiful Radha.

I had a spiritual high and I couldn't control myself from becoming Radha. When I was alone at home, I shaved my beard. I wore my sisters salwar kameez, middle parted hair and wore a nice braid. I applied sindoor in the hair partition. I wore my sister's earrings, put a ring in my nose, wore bangles and applied kohl. I got a feeling of ecstasy. I was looking like a complete woman. A devotee of Lord Krishna.

My mother and sister enquired about my clean shave. I managed to give some reason and escape. But the urge of "Shringar" was just uncontrollable. I searched on internet about similar experiences. It is called "Sakhi Bhava" or "Radhe Bhava".

It is believed that among all the ways for uniting with the Lord, the enactment of the Bhaona on Him like His Raas Leela, is the most crucial and viable medium. In this bhava people wear long hair like the women and consider themselves Dasis or Gopis of Lord Krishna.

They are of the belief that if somehow their search for the Lord becomes true and they get themselves spiritually uplifted like the Gopis of Brindaban, there is the possibility of their uniting with the Lord,

There are Gotipua dancers in Orissa who are boys devoted to Lord Jagannatha who are grown up like girls and they dance in temple becoming a woman dancers as boys are pure unlike female dancers because of their menstrual period, Monks of Majuli also grow hair as Gopikas of Lord Krishna but they don't put on any Shringar.

There is a sect called Sakhi-Bekhi in which men live like Radha or Gopika. They wear woman's dresses, grow hair, wear ornaments and adorn them like Radha and pacify the god.

So it was not abnormal. I gathered courage and explained this to my mother and sister. I requested them to beautify me like Radha and experience invoking her in me.

A day before becoming Radha, in my dream I felt that woman features are developed in my body. Bulge on my chest, voice is softened.

I took elaborate bath. I washed hair and wrapped them in towel for drying. I shaved again. My sister gave me a pair of her undergarments. petticoat, blouse and then both of them wore me a saree. I had spiritual ecstasy. I was just out of the world.

Mother dried my hair and applied hair oil and neatly combed them. I felt as if Lord Krishna is combing and braiding my hair.

I requested to make a braided bun. She also adorned by braided bun with festoon (Gajra) then she applied makeup and bindi, sindoor. I wore ornaments and garland and finally I was transformed into a complete woman. Radha, consort of Lord Krishna.

I remained in this attire for full day. I didn't speak to anyone but enjoying the immense spiritual ecstasy. It was out of the world experience.

In the evening, I felt like retiring to my original form of a man. I removed all the accessories, washed makeup and became a normal man.

I strongly feel that this experience is because of my long hair.

Long hair bear divine powers, extra sensory powers, super natural powers especially on men. This could be the reason most of the Hindu gods used to wear a topknot of long hair.

I thought I shall share my experience with you and share my spiritual ecstasy.

Please share if you have similar experience.

Om